I made the mistake yesterday of doing two things. First I weighed myself, which I told myself that I wouldn't. I had lost about 5 lbs, but I think that made me a little too relaxed/ My journey with this fast isn't only about weight loss. Its about getting into a deeper relationship with the Lord and out of one with food. I don't want this journey to be about the scale. I want to lose weight--Absolutely! I want to replace my desire for food with the desire for the Lord more.
My second mistake was to break fast at lunch instead of dinner. I thought I could eat lunch and I wouldn't eat dinner. That was a huge mistake in my thiinking. We had lunch at Chilis in the afternoon and I ate chips and guac and salsa-not too many. I also had about half of my explosion salad. Not a bad lunch, but by dinner time I was starving. I ate most of a brisket sub from Firehouse Subs and part of Matthews'. I had a few crackers with cheese before dinner and I had some raisinettes at the movies later that night. Although my eating wasn't out of control, I still feel sluggish and I want to make sure that I start to listen to my body and not just the cravings I am having.
Today we are going to Santa's Christmas Tree Farm. There will be hotdogs, kettlecorn, smores, and alot more goodies to stay away from. I am planning on having some hot chocolate while I'm there. I am going to only eat dinner tonight and I want to get back on track. I know that yesterday was definitely not a splurge day, but it was a gentle reminder that I can get led away so easily. I will take yesterday for what it was, a good lesson learned.
"Father, I desire to serve you with my whole being. Please help me to fast for you. Please help me to see that food cannot be my god. Only you can be God in my life. I need you so much. I cannot complete anything without your Spirit. Lord help me to have some self control. Lord I pray tha you would do a work in my heart to desire more of you and less of me. In Jesus name, Amen."
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