It has already been a year since I have last posted. Many things in my life are still the same as last year, but many things have changed as well. I still am an instructor for adults with learning disabilites. I still am continuing the battle with my weight and fitness, but I have lost 20 pounds in the past year. I am continuing a weightloss journey with diet and exercise, but I am not obsessing about everything like I did last year. For the past year the Lord has been drawing me to rely on Him and His ability to change me. I still struggle with trying to do everything in my own strength, but it is by the Spirit's power and grace that I am overcoming the sin of self-reliance in my life. God is always faithful, and true. He will not give me more than I can bare. He will complete the good work He has begun in me.
Here are some thoughts He has placed on my heart lately.
God is always awesome, on the throne, and in control.
I just desire that He is on the throne of my heart.
Desiring God to be on the throne of my heart has made me ask myself some thought provoking
questions. Questions, I am still battling to answer.
1. Am I more concerned with my heart's desires or my heart desiring God?
2. Am I more concerned with my physical comfort and happpiness with the situations of life or of cultivating a heart of service to my Savior, which will require death to self and sacrifice of my time, talents, money, abilities and gifts?
3. Am I more concerned about what I perceive people to think or expect from me than I am of seeking to bring glory and honor to the King of Kings, Lord of Lords and who is the only one that really matters in the first place?
4. Am I just going through the motions of my spiritual walk, just to check things off on every "good little Christians list?" Or, am I actively pursuing my Lord in communion daily, so that I can draw closer to Him and fall more in love with Him so that I am able to say no to my sin and be able to stand against the evil one?
As I continue to seek the Lord for His wisdom and grace daily, I am becoming more encouraged by the growth in my life. I am seeking to please Him and His will for my life. By spending time with Him, He is working through me to fulfill His plan for my life. He remains my God, not because I deserve Him, but because of His great mercy. As I humble myself, He remains on the throne of my heart. How cool is that! A perfect God could love and show mercy to an imperfect me! I am ever grateful and overjoyed at His glorious salvation and I desire to live for Him with all of who He has created me to be!
