It has been quite some time since my last post. I no longer work due to my knee surgery and my weight has completely spiraled out of control.. I have been asking the Lord how to be free. He led me to a couple of sites about intermittent fasting. You fast 19 hours and have a five hour window for eating. I would fast from 10 p.m at night until 5-10 p.m the next night. I really feel that this could be the only way to true freedom. The desire for me to overeat is huge. I have never had a time in my life when all I did was either think about what I could eat or what I had to avoid. This type of eating allows me to eat dinner with my family and not worry about eating too many calories. Fasting is not easy. Giving up my will is not easy. I long to draw closer to my King and learn from him. I want what he wants for me. I want to be able to conquer my flesh and my desire to place food as god in my life. There is only one God in my life and he gave me his son so that I might have freedom. I long to sing his praises not just with my lips on
Sunday, but every day of my life. What an honor it is to worship the God Who Created the Universe. I want to worship him with my life. I desire to bring glory and honor to him with everything I think, say and do. Yes, and do! That means bringing God worship in how I Eat!!!! Am I looking to the God of the Universe as my provider? Am I seeking him daily to be filled? Or am I looking to other things (food, approval of others, me time, entertainment, worldy ambitions) to fill me?
"Father, I pray that you would be my focus today and always. Lord, break this food addiction that I have. Draw me by your Spirit and fill me. Be my God and cast out anything in this temple that does not belong. You alone are God and I desire for you to be the only God in my life. Bring me to a place where food, weightloss and the scale have no reign over my life. I desire to live for you Jesus with everything that I am. Create me to be the woman you desire and let me be wholely devoted to you . I love you Jesus, Amen."
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